Sunday, February 12, 2006
i think i hesitated for quite awhile to write this entry... for i feel that.. it's not something that i ought to let those who read my blogs know... but it seems like now... more n more people are still thinking and believing that we're still very much in love... very happily in love... i felt rather uneasy when people tells me that...
ok... Joseph and i are no longer together anymore... detailed reason, u dun have to know... but in short will be our characters are too far apart... this make it hard for us to understand each other better and better... i aint sure if we still love each other.. and i think this aint important now also...
i dun deny that the first few days was pretty horrible for me.. coz what i do was to cry everyday... refusing to go out of the house to see more people... this news came rather shockening for those people who know.. well.. at least to my friends... and even when they talk to me....console me.. enlighten me... tears just came pouring down... but i guess things got so much better after so much crying and thinking...
i try to get myself 'participating' in more outings... but it aint that successful.. most of my friends are either too busy with their own life, exams, or projects.. and once i had this opportunity to go out.. i will try to be out as late as i can... like 2 nights ago.. when we had this maternal family dinner.. i urge my cousins to go out.. and last nite.. when we went to this polymate bday.. i try to look for places to go after the party.. and we ended up at kev's place for mahjong.. together with JS, Eve, Amy and myself.. and while we're taking a break from the mahjong session.. we took turn to use the com.. and after surfing around in the friendster.. my heart sank again... coz i started to pour for gods know whose business.. and kinda got tipsy after 3 small little cup of beer... farK... im glad i've them around this time..
everywhere around lays memories of him.. like for eg, the Cs went for earlier in the day on sat for lunch.. i saw his first gf along the orchard street... and this Apple girl at PS.. i think all these is enough to make a girl who've just broke off with her bf to go abit.. i-dunno-how-to-explain...
but anway.. whatever it is... verdict passed.. no point brooding too much.. had been telling myself.. pick up and move on.. and i think im starting to move on a bit... but still i think i gonna be same disgusted with Vday.. since it's coming soon...
loads of hugs and kisses to those people who cared..who asked.. who show concerns... i appreciated all these... dun worry... i'll gonna be the same old chrissy that u once to know soon...
Toast
ok... Joseph and i are no longer together anymore... detailed reason, u dun have to know... but in short will be our characters are too far apart... this make it hard for us to understand each other better and better... i aint sure if we still love each other.. and i think this aint important now also...
i dun deny that the first few days was pretty horrible for me.. coz what i do was to cry everyday... refusing to go out of the house to see more people... this news came rather shockening for those people who know.. well.. at least to my friends... and even when they talk to me....console me.. enlighten me... tears just came pouring down... but i guess things got so much better after so much crying and thinking...
i try to get myself 'participating' in more outings... but it aint that successful.. most of my friends are either too busy with their own life, exams, or projects.. and once i had this opportunity to go out.. i will try to be out as late as i can... like 2 nights ago.. when we had this maternal family dinner.. i urge my cousins to go out.. and last nite.. when we went to this polymate bday.. i try to look for places to go after the party.. and we ended up at kev's place for mahjong.. together with JS, Eve, Amy and myself.. and while we're taking a break from the mahjong session.. we took turn to use the com.. and after surfing around in the friendster.. my heart sank again... coz i started to pour for gods know whose business.. and kinda got tipsy after 3 small little cup of beer... farK... im glad i've them around this time..
everywhere around lays memories of him.. like for eg, the Cs went for earlier in the day on sat for lunch.. i saw his first gf along the orchard street... and this Apple girl at PS.. i think all these is enough to make a girl who've just broke off with her bf to go abit.. i-dunno-how-to-explain...
but anway.. whatever it is... verdict passed.. no point brooding too much.. had been telling myself.. pick up and move on.. and i think im starting to move on a bit... but still i think i gonna be same disgusted with Vday.. since it's coming soon...
loads of hugs and kisses to those people who cared..who asked.. who show concerns... i appreciated all these... dun worry... i'll gonna be the same old chrissy that u once to know soon...
Toast